I don't want to be so mean to him...he said I go through phases, where I will be totally bitchy for 3 weeks and then I'll be totally different for another few weeks.

I honestly love him more than everthing in this workd and I truly appreciate everything he does for me, especially this weekend.

I don't want to be mean. And I know he won't see this, but from the bottom of my heart I am sorry for every little thing.