I feel empty.

I keep tearing up. After every stupid little thing. Even though I'm so happy, I'm so depressed. How can you feel both of those emotions at the same time? I didn't even think it was possible! I have such low self esteem right now so that doesn't help....Plus I'm fat. Ugh.

My sissy and nephew are moving out of the country for 3 years. As much as she bugs the shit out of me, I'm heart broken. I don't think I'll be able to handle not seeing the nubbin for 3 years. I've been with him since the minute he was born, I love that kid more than life itself. I'm going to fall apart. Can I hibernate for 3 years? Is that an option?