I miss Westminster. It was crazy expensive but dammit it was easy. I knew what I wanted to do then. But now...I have no idea.

And because I can't find anything to be passionate about, I've failed practically all my classes. What I would like to do is put the U on hold and maybe just get an associates at SLCC. I'd have no problem going there just to get the necessaries out of the way. It'd be cheaper, it'd be somewhat closer, and I would maybe get to take some classes with my boyfriend.

I just worry what others will think. If my second-mom was just off my bank account, I wouldn't be so afraid...but she can see where my payments go. I think I'll ask her if I can be a grown up and have the account to myself.

Speaking of being a bad college student: I had it today. My boyfriend and I were playing pool when his roommate +3 others show up with MORE beer and MORE booze and I HAVE HAD IT. I went upstairs and told him that this is insanely childish. AGAIN??? Jesus. He said, "that is how most college students live..." and I blurted out, "does that make me a bad student?"

"No, not a bad student."

"A bad person, right?" I just...I freaked out. I can't deal with their bullshit anymore. He says I need to make more friends but I refuse to be friends with those guys.

Bleh I feel sick. But I got my birthday skates today!