UGH. When did things start feeling weird???

I went to see him last night but it didn't feel like he really missed me.

I fucked up today. I didn't pick him up this morning for the gym. It may not be a huge mistake, easily forgiven, but it feels like I REALLY fucked up and that this is only adding to whatever the hell is wrong with us.

Fucking fuck fuck. I should have sent him that email. I still think he needs to read it.